bulutong scare!

There is an epidemic of chicken pox in this place.

It all started with our neighbour - the first one to get the virus. I couldn't understand why he didn't leave their house to spare his two kids of the virus. His eldest is 4 and the youngest is months younger than Giann. The father is all well now. But both the kids got the virus. It seems to me though that it doesn't bother them one bit. When I went out of the house for a drive, I saw both kids in the streets - playing! With scabs all over their body. And their parents were just there, watching. Didn't they know that 1. sick children should be resting; 2. they should be confined at home to prevent the spread of the airborne virus. No, they probably don't know. Or just don't care.

Now the eldest daughter of Giann’s maid has the virus as well! And she lives upstairs! Giann’s maid, the other maid and her younger sister are all exposed to her, and they all come down here to play/look after Giann! One thing about chicken pox is sometimes, you already have it but you have no idea that you’re a carrier. Pau and I are now afraid that one of them might spread the virus and infect Giann and me! We’re both very susceptible to chicken pox. Giann’s still very young and I am pregnant. Chicken pox, like any infection, is a big NO to any pregnant woman.

Therefore Pau has decided that both Giann and I leave this place until the outbreak has totally subsided. We’re going to be Mummy Lhai’s refugees for days, weeks even!

Too bad Pau won’t be staying with us. He’s got no place to sleep in our little condo! Heh. We’ll definitely miss him. :( But it’s something we gotta do to make sure Giann and Baby Red won’t get infected by chicken pox. Anyway, Pau’s promised to visit us every day and that while he’s in this house, he won’t leave the room or be in contact with the maids so he won’t get the virus. Then again he keeps on insisting that once you already had chicken pox, you get immune to it. But I read somewhere that you can still get the virus long years after your first infection. So yeah. Better safe than sorry!

I knew it. This place is really not good for us!

xoxo

2nd time around!

Love is not perfect.

But it's a decision I don't regret choosing with you. :)

Happy 2nd wedding anniversary! ♥

xoxo

Super Pau!

I'm not going to lie. One thing I love about Pau is that he spoils me. :P

Today I casually told him that I *think* I want McDonald's. I didn't tell him I WANT MCDONALD'S. I said I was toying the idea that I might want to buy something from McDonald's. Came dinner and I had chicken nuggets, fries and hot fudge on my desk!

It might seem like a little thing but little things can mean a lot! And they matter!

Believe me, my tantrums and cravings are out of this world (you can ask Ingolok! :P). But Pau can handle them just right. Of course it annoys him (when I reach his boiling point which rarely happens!) but he's mastered The Art of Yeng's Tantrums/Cravings and hats off to him for that. :)

xoxo

168 blues

I am once again lamenting over the fact that this house gets absobloodlylutely depressing without Pau and with Giann asleep.

I am done with "working." And I'm not yet sleepy. There's nothing good on TV. And Mac's playing Prinsesita. In short, I've nothing to do.

Well, even if there's WoW and a good show on, I'd still rather have Pau here.

The reason why I'm here is not here. It doesn't make sense. Pft.

xoxo

different loves

Pau has taught me to accept this as an absolute truth:

Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they've got.

He loves me with and at his best. And sometimes I just don't realise it. His idea of loving can be different than mine, but that doesn't mean that he loves me the wrong way. There's no right or wrong way in loving someone. Love is just is. It's there or it isn't. It's as simple and complicated as that. And he loved/s me for 10 long years. Thank God for him! :)

xoxo

HA-HA-HA

I can friggin relate much!

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Something Pau is very good at (aside from excessive WoW-playing) is this:

Pau's acrylic painting of Mt. Arayat. :)

Galing diba? *beams*

He's got a self-portrait too. I have yet to take a photo of it. Oh and a tiny sketch of my photo too! :P

xoxo

my main man

Because I do not have the right words to say...

how blessed I am to have you

how thankful I am for this day

how wonderful life is with you

and how amazing that love grows despite and in spite of.

Here you go:

God knows how many times I've ran away from you. But you silently wait in one corner (because you're just that freakin patient when it comes to me!), knowing I'd be back. It's hard to breathe without your air.

Happy happy birthday to my happy pill! :)

xoxo

I'm SuperWoman hear me roar! :P

I love how when I'm with Pau everything is easy. Like I have the answer to all his problems. How different when I'm Yeng the Markets Officer or Yeng the graduate student where everything is just... hard and complicated - where answers aren't as simple as "then just do whatever makes you happy!"

Pau's concerns are different. I wouldn't really call them unimportant as they ARE essential to him. It's just that his main problems are about simple things - like WoW. I mean how hard and complicated can that be, yeah? After all, it's just a game. And games are supposed to be fun. So when it ceases to be fun, then you know something's wrong. It's simple logic. You don't have to know Nietzsche and Heidegger and Baudrillard to arrive to a conclusion about those problems.

I love how I feel like I'm such a wise woman with Pau. I love how he heeds my advice and actually takes them seriously. And I love how opinionated he is when it comes to WoW. You should know how passive Pau is on almost everything about life. But he turns into this oh-so-passionate-and-active man when the topic at hand has something to do with WoW! It's something I love and hate. But it's something I have to live with so I've learnt to accept it.

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To anyone who cares, nope I am not yet all "well." I still have friggin coughs and colds. I blame our doomed building! Really.

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1. If I was to walk into your life, I am going to stay forever - one way or another.

2. Catch a bright star and place it in your hands. Hold on to it like you would a lover.

3. And you can send me to the moon and dance with me!

4. I can pretend but I'm dealing with a memory that never forgets.

5. I'm the innocent bystander / Somehow I got stuck in a crazy crazy circus!

6. What's keeping us apart isn't selfishness, it's something else and you know it.

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I’m looking forward to sleeping, tomorrow my plans include sleeping and bonding time with Giann and Sunday, I want to sleep and play with Giann! Yep I'm a simple girl with simple wants! :P

xoxo

bad news, sad news and amusing news

BAD NEWS

I did a major booboo at work. I sent an e-mail to over 600 clients saying that we're holding a seminar for free when in fact, we're charging Php1,250 per attendee. It was a miscommunication. I know I'm supposed to be good at communication but I lose it especially when I've heaps of concern that I need to attend to.

So tomorrow, the COO is going to meet with me and my boss. According to his secretary, he's terribly upset. I know I would be too! "WTF WERE YOU THINKING YENG?! FREE?!" Okay, so maybe he won't lose it like that but I'm still royally screwed. Oh well. It was MY mistake. And I'm sorry about it. Too bad sorry doesn't always make up for it, yeah?

This is actually the first time EVER that I wish I'm still working for the family. Because then, I can fuck up big time and the worst my auntie could do is tell my dad. Then I can just smile/pout (whichever works) at my dad and say, "she's too much!" (and he knows that she really is).

I really don't mean the previous paragraph, you know. I don't want to work for the family ever again. That even if I get it my way with the family - tardy everyday, do AWOL, come to work in flip-flops (HEAVEN! :P), and chat the day away on YM and MSN! I was a terrible "employee" but she was the worst "employer" so we're even. ;)

ZOMG wish me luck tomorrow. I badly need it.

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ANOTHER BAD NEWS

One of our maids (and cook) is leaving. After 24 years of serving this family. Well actually, she's already left since almost a month ago. But we thought she's coming back as soon as she's able to attend to whatever pressing family issues they have back in their province. That's what we all thought. Until one of the maids (and her sister) said that she has no plan to go back anymore. I was astonished. It's going to be a very big problem for this house.

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SAD NEWS

You know your child is a big little boy already when he doesn't want you to rock him to sleep anymore. :( Before he wouldn't sleep if I don't rock him to sleep while singing a lullaby. Now, I carry him and he wants to be put down! What he does is that he'll try to hug me while he puts himself to sleep but his little arms cannot reach me yet. So he makes sure his body touches mine to make it up to the "cannot hug you yet mum" problem.

I really dunno if this is a "sad" news. Giann's growing up, that's normal. And actually, that's good. But I guess, I'm just not yet ready to let him go, no matter how slowly the process goes.

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SOMEWHAT AMUSING NEWS

I noticed that Giann's boxes of toys are neatly stacked in one place and so are our unused wedding gifts. So I asked Pau, "wow, who cleaned our room today? See how neat and proper everything looks now. I've always wanted to ask them to do that." And he didn't even look at me but he was like, "what? cleaned what? no one? I don't know." I was surprised, "wow you spend the WHOLE day inside this room and you don't even notice a single change in this room when it happens!" I think it's amusing how he cannot care like that. Or how unnoticeable everything is for him as long as they have nothing to do with his computer. Or maybe, I am just annoyingly observant. But I'm betting that's it's more because he's heavily fixated on his computer. :P He's not too bad though.

xoxo

he's a father!

Pau put Giann to sleep last night. Without me asking him!

It took him one year. But it's well worth the wait. :)

xoxo

how I love/hate Nietzsche

From this day forward:

♥ I will take it like a real girl. Someone I deeply care about is hostile to me. Living here is not nice. I will suck it up and take it like a girl. I'll chalk them up to the "not-so-outstanding-results-of-my-decisions" category. And really, there are bazillion other things worse than these.

♥ I will cherish Pau more. He once said, "he'll never find another Yeng." (he = a friend looking for love) And the truth is, I'll never find another Pau too. :)

♥ I will TRY to stop hating being here. Because like, complaining does nothing but trouble me more. TRY is the mega-multi-billionaire keyword there.

♥ I will stop wishing for things that will probably never happen. Or has come and gone already. Enough said.

♥ I will save more money. Because in two words: Pau and Giann.

♥ I will slow down and appreciate.

Okay I should stop now. I've listed one too many things I might lose track of them. :P I am not really a big fan of "resolutions" especially the ones you write for the new year. But screw it, it's not a new year! And this list is more like personal promises more than anything. So yeah.

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Pau has such a silly (in a nice way) plan for Giann.

"Giann, when you're big enough to appreciate, say like when 3 or 4, I will take you to a jeepney/tricycle/train ride! Just so you experience how it's like to ride public transportation."

Made me smile.

xoxo

the only one worth it.

How tired I am. BUT. Giann's worth it. :)

I will post photos tomorrow or whenever Pau decides to let me use his PC. This PC's USB hub is screwed. So yeah.

Thankyou thankyou thankyou to all those who attended Giann's birthday party! Even if the birthday boy spent most of the time clinging on to his mum and snubbing everyone. :P

Man, I am tired. I should rest now. Big day tomorrow (work) plus I need to re-arrange our closets to make way for Giann's UBER plenty toys and clothes! I'll show you his loot next time. They're overwhelming. :)

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Pau answered the question "When are you online?/When are you available to play?" (on his WoW character) with "I'm online everyday. From 9am-1am, +8GMT." I read it, was not really surprised and teased him, "wow, you have NO life." He laughed.

Pretty amusing.

I remember asking him before, "if I leave you, what do you think will happen to you? What would you do?"

"Nothing. Just play WoW the whole day?"

"Ah. Very productive."

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So sleepy but waiting for time! :D

P.S. Let's all hope Pau lets me upload photos soon omg!

xoxo

ode to him :)

The grandest love is not the one that drives you crazy.

It is the one that bares you wholly, and beats you during your weakest, most exposed self. It pains you so much you curse it. It stresses you and hurts you. But when all is said and done, you still choose to love that love. To hold on to that love. To hope, have faith and work on that love.

Love is a decision. The thing that drives you crazy is merely a feeling. But when you've exhausted all the feelings, and you know with your whole heart you still want that love, you're lucky.

The grandest love is not the one with all the extreme emotions vying for your attention thus leaving you all confused. Sometimes, the best kind of love is slow and steady - comforting, familiar yet it never fails to make you gush like the first time.

:)

xoxo

happy/sad

Pau's out for the night ergo I have the internet connection all to myself. But I am not really thrilled. I prefer he's home. Doesn't matter if he does nothing but sit in front of his computer. I just want him here. This house gets ultimately depressing without Pau. After all, he's the reason why I'm here so him not being here is just... weird. And lonely. I look at the sleeping Giann beside me and all I want to do is pack all our things and go home. Pau should get back soon or I'll lose my mind here omg.

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Anyway... On to happier things!

YOU'RE ALL INVITED TO ATTEND THE GRANDEST 1st BIRTHDAY OF ALL TIME!

I know I've already established this fact looong ago but: ISN'T GIANN THE CUTEST LITTLE GUY EVER! He's gotten so big now it's amazing. :)

Thanks "Auntie" Gill for the invitation! Do the pig! Do the pig! Hahaha. :P

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Speaking of Gill.

Gill is 1/4 Chinese, 1/4 Japanese, 1/4 Korean and 1/4 Taiwanese! Yeah, she's confused like that. Hehe. :P


But I love her nonetheless. :)

Hana sans her uber expensive glasses! :P

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No fridaysfeast for today boo.

Hmm. Then playing WoW I shall. ;)

Laters.

♥

xoxo

weekends

Saturday was spent with my siblings in an anime convention. It felt like I was transported to another Universe - one where 'people' wear funny-looking clothes, sport striking coloured hair and carry funny accessories and 'weapons'. I jokingly announced, "wow I think I'm under dressed." And Pau was like, "Para tayong nasa mental hospital." Hahaha. His tongue is sharper than mine! :P

Shobe dressed as someone from Prince of Tennis

Someone dressed as... beats me!

I told you I was under dressed!

Go girlaloo! :P

Is Mask Rider Black actually anime? Hmm.

Saturday night was spent being honest.

Sunday was spent with Pau and Giann for foot spa + pedicure + manicure day! Giann decided to eat, tear all the magazines his maid amused him with. He also decided to “destroy” the fake plant display and put some of its leaves in his mouth. Then he screamed and whined gazillion times! He’s a brat in the making, I can tell! :P Despite that, I still think he’s a cutie. ;)

I slept around 8:00 PM Sunday night. Bad migraine.

Today was not so great either. I slept the whole ride to the office because of severe migraine. I almost missed the street where I get off. I look really lousy and I feel sick.

To top it all off, the heel of my left shoe decided to do a “Mentos” on me. Hahaha. I wanted to pull the other pair’s heel off too but I friggin couldn’t. It’s a mystery to me why the left heel was so disentangled while the right one was so screwed. I mean not like I’m hopping on my left foot from one place to the other! But anyways, thankyouveryVERYmuch Pol for offering to buy a mighty bond for my shoe. Hahaha. Jologs at its finest. :P But see, it is the Universe’s way of handing a sign. I am so buying the ZARA ballet flats I’ve been eyeing since last month. :)

Good night world.

P.S. Our boss (of all people) sent us an e-mail about the earthquake in China and it tore my heart apart. :(

xoxo

my brave big kuya EJ plus some

He's learnt to ice skate in 30 minutes! And he was not afraid! :D

See how EJ looks more confident and comfortable in the ice than Shobe? :P He actually learnt faster!

All thanks to his Kuya Pau. :)

Amazing how Pau can pull off being a good, reliable big brother to my siblings when he's been an unico hijo all his life. But yeah, it's nice. :)

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Random things I've learnt:

- McDonald's in India is called McDees (or however they spell it. I have yet to confirm :P)

- Munyangit = whine in Tagalog (or is it, Hana?)

- Malunggay has like 1,000,005 uses/benefits and counting OMG! ;)

- "The Firm" Australia has the most organised (ergo, best) practice amongst all other "The Firm" firms worldwide ergo Markets Group Philippines wants to submit a letter of intent... to transfer companies! :P

- and last but not the least, I NEED TO FINISH MY THESIS THIS SEMESTER. Proposal, proposal defense, writing and defense. o.o

xoxo

true story

It was one of the nights when Mac stayed here to play WoW. I was trying to put Giann to sleep - rocking him while singing him a lullaby. And believe me, when I sing him a lullaby, I do it real passionately haha. As if it's the most beautiful love song in the world. ;) Always does the trick!

M: Hindi ko ma-imagine na ganyan si V.
P: *laughs* Bakit?
M: Yung ganyan, pakanta-kanta, sayaw-sayaw... Parang hindi bagay, nyay!
Me: Naku, e di wag ka muna mag anak noh! Mahirap yan!
P: Eh bakit ba si Yeng? Iisipin mo bang magiging ganyan yan dati, sa arte nyan!
M: *laughs* sabagay.
Me: ano yun???
M: wala... *laughsharder*

Yes Pau and Mac, I heard you very well!!!

All I can say: you love me nonetheless. *flipshair*

cuteness

I hope Giann would be this cute when he grows up. Hehe. But I'm certain he'd be cuter! ;) Plus, he'd have fairer skin tone. And almond eyes. ♥

I'd definitely teach him "how NOT to close your eyes when you're having your photo taken!" Haha. And how to smile like he means it! :P Man, I can't wait for Giann to grow up! But at the same time, I can. :)

P.S. I can't be biased. Despite me not liking Pau the past days, I still think he looks cute in this photo.

xoxo

sunburnt

Because I was so eager to go home yesterday, I talked Pau into riding a non-airconditioned bus. He was reluctant at first but when I'm eager, I won't take no for an answer and he knew it. So we rode a non-airconditioned Dela Rosa bus on our way home. I was super giddy as I felt the wind blowing on my face and I didn't mind that it would mess my hair up! I was happy and I felt like I was in a rollercoaster haha. But an hour on that bus ride and this is how my right arm looks like now:

We were seated on the side where the sun was shining. It was 2 in the afternoon! I love the sun and I would've liked it if he kissed me ALL OVER. Then I would have an early "summer skin." But instead, he made my right arm look like a chiffon slice. Grats me.

Now, Pau would tease me by singing "uling uling uling ulinglingling..." Before it was "chingching taba taba chingching..." Yeah, we watch those Sexbomb series on TV. :P

I am now officially a chiffon cake. thankyouverymuch.

Oh. Here's another photo. ;) NOT of my right arm!

I LOVE HIM TO BITS!

He's payat now cause he was sick (and was hospitalised) for a week. The reason why I wasn't an active blogger for days.

xoxo

thought #3

I don't know which is worse: The way I am or your perception of me.

And you're supposedly my better half.

Wow.

It's too painful to realise that the one who's supposedly supporting/loving/standing by you and fighting for you is just like the rest of them narrow-minded people you hate.

I married my mortal enemy.

Or maybe. I got it all wrong. Although I'm certain that he's the one who got it all messed up.

P.S. Thank you for slapping the past right back to my face.