Mothers I adore

Lhai Recalde Taylan. I've always said that if I become half the mother and woman my mum is then I'd consider myself successful. But from where I stand now I realise that if I do just that, I'd end up disappointing her. I realised that a mother would always want her children to go way beyond her achievements and to dream bigger than her dreams. So Ma, I will follow your path, but I promise to go way beyond you've ever dreamed of. :) Thank you for being my inspiration. Thank you for being the strongest, smartest, funniest, coolest, most beautiful, most supportive and most understanding mother anyone could ever have. (Anyone who truly knows my mum will definitely agree with me.) I would like to believe I've inherited your one-of-a-kind strength and for that, thank you. :) I love you very much. ♥

Michelle Taylan Suarez. My Ate has always been a mother-figure even before she had Kylie. She stood as a second mother to me, Shobe and EJ in more ways than she could ever imagine. As a sister she's strict, protective, generous and caring. As a mother she's even better! :) Kylie is one lucky angel for having ate as her mother. Ate is luckier for being her mother. ;) I love you, Ate Mich! :D


Vanessa Abainza Arinsol. We were a few weeks away from graduating from college when my best friend learnt she was carrying Enzo, but unlike other girls our age, she didn't cower. She stood taller than ever as if saying, "bring it on!" Nhe is a fighter. She's independent and carefree and not sweet! :-P But I'm sure as hell she's the sweetest mother to Enzo! :) And I love her much!


Khristine Machuca Esguerra. My good friend from college, Chickie, is a girl blessed with the power of being motherly in nature. Even back in college, there's something in her that made me believe she'd make a good mother. I'm sure the cutie Bettina will agree with me! ;)


Denden Recalde Chua. My Tita Den is someone I really admire. She's superbly loving and caring to Ishee and Boyboy and despite some problems she's encountered, she remains strong for her children. She will do anything and everything for them. It takes a great deal of strength and love to keep a family together and my Tita Den is such a strong woman (I think it runs in our blood!) She's one ideal "Naynay" and she is one of my inspirations. :)


Connie Marie Arinque. Truth is, Connie isn't a mum yet but she belongs to the "Mothers I adore" list simply because she's got all the attributes that make a good mother. :) She's patient, supportive, caring, loving, selfless, thrifty and smart. Our teenage students love her, which one way or another, reflects how her future children will look up to her. ;) She claimed on her mother's-day-card for me that I actually stand as a mother to her. The thing is, she stands like a mother to me, too! She helps me go to places I haven't been to and teaches me things I've never heard of before. She inspires me to work harder because she is such a good teacher, I feel ashamed to be any less. I haven't told you Mads, but you've been nothing but a positive influence on me. And for that I am really grateful. :) I love you!

Other mothers I truly love and look up to:

Agnes Recalde Valmores & Kathryn Valmores Aguilar. Mama Ness and Ate Kath are mothers I adore because they are beautiful and strong (as I said, it runs in our blood! :P).

Katherine Bacosa. I know of many women who got pregnant at such an early age and right after giving birth, forgot about their kids. Kath is the exact opposite. She's living a beautiful life in a different country yet she's never forgotten about her son here in the Philippines. This made me respect and love her more. :)

Nina Recalde Garcia. Because I know she'll move heaven and hell for Dhona and Dhonell! :) I admire Tita Nina because she's strong, selfless and beautiful.

Baybee Recalde Collao. Because despite and in spite of, her love for life and her kids has remained as steadfast as ever. Some of life's beautiful and bitter lessons I've learned from my Tita Baybee.

2nd time around!

Love is not perfect.

But it's a decision I don't regret choosing with you. :)

Happy 2nd wedding anniversary! ♥

xoxo

OZ OZ OI OI

While on our way to the cinema to watch "The Spirit", Pau and I were looking at movie posters to check on the 'up and coming' movies. And then all of a sudden:

P: "Ah eto Be, kahit ilibre mo pa ko, hinding hindi ko papanoorin!"
Me: "Huh?"
P: "Ayan o, AUSTRALIA." *laughs*
Me: "Bakit naman? Alam mo bang there was some sort of controversy about that movie."
P: "Talaga? Ano?"
Me: "Not really sure basta meron. I read it somewhere."
P: "Okay, ayaw ko pa din!"
Me: "Sayang sa EDSA Shang pa man din sana kita itreat pag pinanood natin yan!"

He frowned at me of course. :P

Amazing how people can forgive but how hard it is to forget. I don't blame Pau. I don't blame him either. And I don't blame myself as well.

And I'm saying the same thing for feelings.

Love is ALWAYS a good thing. No matter how bad or sad it ended. Or never did.

xoxo

have I ever told you?

that I have the BEST (if only I can double, triple, quadruple bold this word!) family in the world? :)

HAPPY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!

I'm off to be with my loves so later.

xoxo

OH MY GOD I LOVE WOLVERINE!

Hurry the eff up May 2009!

xoxo

love love love!

My boys (Kuya Baby Giann and Kuya Tito EJ) playing on a Saturday morning :)

xoxo

oh boy

You can thank your stars all you want but
I'll always be the lucky one

xoxo

different loves

Pau has taught me to accept this as an absolute truth:

Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they've got.

He loves me with and at his best. And sometimes I just don't realise it. His idea of loving can be different than mine, but that doesn't mean that he loves me the wrong way. There's no right or wrong way in loving someone. Love is just is. It's there or it isn't. It's as simple and complicated as that. And he loved/s me for 10 long years. Thank God for him! :)

xoxo

yeah you!

You're my parachute and the ground is 2,000 miles below. You know I'm not scared of flying nor of dying but please just let me hold on to you. Like dear life.

I don't want to crash land.

Not when the other option is much much better.

xoxo

i couldn't find words

"Mum"

I've been wanting to write about something but I wanted to make my first entry about it amazingly beautiful it would top all my other past entries. Well, okay, at least be at par with how I talk about having Giann.

3 months after I still don't know what to say. Heh.

So I guess I should just say it like it is.

I'm four months pregnant with my second child! :)

I know I said I won't be pregnant until Pau and Giann are mature/old enough for another baby. I was surprised though. I told Pau about it and he was ecstatic. He put Giann on his lap and was like, "now you're all mine!" Of course Giann protested. :P But I was relieved to know that I'd only have a hard time with Giann. Pau's embraced his fatherhood. Although his mum still hasn't. But anyway... I'm really excited to have another baby! Pregnancy is hard and makes me uber fat but it's a worthwhile experience. Nothing will ever beat the feeling of having a baby. Really.

Now I'm super excited to know if she's a she or a he! I want a she. I want a little Yeng! :P Giann IS a little Yeng in so many ways but I can't dress him up with cute pink dresses! Haha. At the same time I want another he, so he can defend himself when Giann wrestles him! :P I'm actually preparing myself for Royal Rumble in our room. Heh.

But of course it's not an entire glorious ride. My BP shoots up every day. When I was pregnant with Giann, I was pre-eclamtic. One reason why I delivered via CS. But now, my BP's shooting up every single day. Makes me feel terrible. I guess it's because when I was pregnant with Giann, I only have to look after myself and focus on my pregnancy. Now I commute every single day to work, I have CRL for a boss (worst ever!), I stress over work, then when I get home I have Pau and Giann to look after. It's NOT easy. My pregnancy with Giann was a breeze. I live with mum then and was well taken cared of. Now, I only have myself. There's Pau but he's a boy! He's not FULLY aware of what it's like to be pregnant - to have your hormones work overtime, get silly morning sickness, and feel sleepy 70% of the day.

But overall the baby and I are the doing good. :) Of course Giann wrestles us most of the time but he's okay. I have to worry about his being possesive of me when his little sibling comes but I guess every first born had to go through that process. Giann's a smart kid; I know he'll handle. :) And just because I've a new born doesn't mean I'll take him for granted. Giann's too much of a cutie to be neglected!

P.S. Now y'all know why I'm such a lazy terrible blogger the past months.

Super P.S. I realised I've weird menstrual period. When Ate announced she was pregnant I had monthly period but now I'm actually going to deliver days earlier than she! It was also the same case for Giann - I still had my period although I'm already a month pregnant with him.

xoxo

my main man

Because I do not have the right words to say...

how blessed I am to have you

how thankful I am for this day

how wonderful life is with you

and how amazing that love grows despite and in spite of.

Here you go:

God knows how many times I've ran away from you. But you silently wait in one corner (because you're just that freakin patient when it comes to me!), knowing I'd be back. It's hard to breathe without your air.

Happy happy birthday to my happy pill! :)

xoxo

I love you

Exactly 1 year ago today I had you.

And from that day on, I had never let you go.

I never believed in love at first sight.

Until this day:

See, I have never really considered my self a "good" person. But now I know I did something VERY OUTSTANDINGLY right some time in my life. I should have. Because I was blessed with you.

You are the GRANDEST blessing I ever EVER received.

Happy 1st birthday Giann. :)

Thank you for the past 12 months filled with anticipation, anxiety, stress, patience, bliss, love and lessons.

Thank you for completing me.

Love,
mum

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Good night all! :)

xoxo

ode to him :)

The grandest love is not the one that drives you crazy.

It is the one that bares you wholly, and beats you during your weakest, most exposed self. It pains you so much you curse it. It stresses you and hurts you. But when all is said and done, you still choose to love that love. To hold on to that love. To hope, have faith and work on that love.

Love is a decision. The thing that drives you crazy is merely a feeling. But when you've exhausted all the feelings, and you know with your whole heart you still want that love, you're lucky.

The grandest love is not the one with all the extreme emotions vying for your attention thus leaving you all confused. Sometimes, the best kind of love is slow and steady - comforting, familiar yet it never fails to make you gush like the first time.

:)

xoxo

i adore(d) Sex and the City.

The challenge in life is to find someone who would still hold your hand despite the years. Even though his ice cream melted while waiting for you because you want to find a pair of good shoes. Which would only mean you're waaay more important than friggin DQ ice cream. Which SHOULD be the case, anyways. He won't purposely walk fast for you to fall behind because he knows you're carrying an uber heavy bag and shopping bags. He will ESPECIALLY wait for you when you're about to cross the street because you've just learnt the art of crossing streets 3 years ago.

Ah, it's so hard to find someone like that. Or is it, really?

That even if you've known someone since ancient times, still won't guarantee he'd be that.

Believe me, I so know.

The end.

xoxo

QC addict

Here's one of my favourite strips of Questionable Content. And yeah, it's because of the dialogue. BETWEEN TWO GUYS.

There.

Speaking of guys who are crazy in-love... I have a "friend" (yeah we're kind of like friends now actually :P) who would literally go out of his way for a girl. Like follow her to another country. For REAL. And while he was telling me about his plans, I looked in his eyes and I was amazed to see how in-love he is. His eyes were shining and he was so excited and nervous it was crazy. He is CRAZY. I mean, only my dad would follow me anywhere in the world if I decide to run away from him! :P Haha. Hmm. Maybe Pau will too, but it all depends on WHERE I decide to run off to, yeah Pau? :P

Ahh love. Crazy.

xoxo

vow

I know I said I'm going back to work but I re-read this:


Still holds true.

upside down!

This ultimately made up for my super bad yesterday:

I lie awake and watch your shoulders
move so softly as you breath
with every breath
you're growing older
but that is fine if you're with me
I pledge to wake you with a smile
I pledge to hold you when you cry
I pledge to love you until I die

Yay! ♥ Best ever. EVER.

xoxo

hmm...

So this is "convenience." How alien this feeling is to me.

I'd choose inconvenience anytime.

But probably not tonight.

Maybe.

kindof

When you fall in love, it is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake, and then it subsides. And when it subsides, you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots are become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the desire to mate every second of the day. It is not lying awake at night imagining that he is kissing every part of your body. No... don't blush. I am telling you some truths. For that is just being in love; which any of us can convince ourselves we are. Love itself is what is left over, when being in love has burned away. Doesn't sound very exciting, does it?"

From "Captain Corelli's Mandolin"

L♥ve

So I know it's already the 15th but I can't be bothered earlier! And after all, it's the thought that counts! :P

Happy love's day everyone! :)

xoxo