2008

* What did you do in 2008 that you'd never done before?
Hmm. Ah, work in Ayala Avenue. Or well, just work. I've worked before but I never took them seriously until The Firm. Oh and yeah, travel! :)

* Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
No and no. > same answer.

* Did anyone close to you give birth?
No.

* Did anyone close to you die?
No one thankgod.

* What countries did you visit?
Singapore, Malaysia.

* What would you like to have in 2009 that you lacked in 2008?
A house.

* What date from 2008 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
January 2008.

* What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Raising Giann. It's an ongoing process but I've raised him to 1 1/2 year old this year and I'm hell proud of him and of myself for it. :P

* What was your biggest failure?
I failed to do my thesis proposal :( > Oh man I still have the same answer!

* Did you suffer illness or injury?
I was hypertensive for the time being when I was still being harassed by The Firm!

* What was the best thing you bought?
My new CPU. Pau envies me for having a better PC! :P Haha.

* Whose behavior merited celebration?
Pau's. Fathehood is something that came to him unexpectedly, but he pulled it off much better this year. :)

* Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Pau's mum's sometimes.

* Where did most of your money go?
Buying stuffs for Giann. > same answer! and to my new PINK CPU! :P

* What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Realising that I'm about to have another child! :) And spending the holidays with my loves!

* What song(s) will always remind you of 2008?
Hmm. Your Universe - Rico Blanco. And Mad - Neyo. Because it's always on radio!

* Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? -- bit of both
ii. thinner or fatter? -- fattEST! haha. > OMG same answer! :(
iii. richer or poorer? -- richer I guess. Mum would hate it if i say am poorer. LOL. --> same answer haha. > same answer again haha.

* What do you wish you'd done more?
Go out with friends.

* What do you wish you'd done less of?
eating! I am so much of a fat pig now, really. > same answer.

* How many one-night stands?
none. > same answer.

* What was your favorite TV program?
We don't watch the TV anymore. Giann's the king of our room's TV and DVD. Ergo his DVDs are always the ones on loop!

* Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
No one. Hating is a waste of emotion, energy and time. > same.

* What was the best book you read?
definitely Love You Forever. :)

* What was your greatest musical discovery?
I've rediscovered OPM.

* What did you want and get?
A diamond ring!!!

* What was your favorite film of this year?
I can't remember any. So none most probably.

* What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I'm young :P and had 3 birthday celebs.

* What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
A house.

* How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2008?
Casual dresses, shorts, loose tops.

* What kept you sane?
Giann Theodore Alfonso. And this blog. :P

* Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Jim Sturgess!

* What political issue stirred you the most?
I stopped giving a damn.

* Who did you miss?
My family.

* Who was the best new person you met?
Gill, HV, Pol and Ivor.

* Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2008:
Motherhood is the most challenging profession in the world. But it also is the best and most rewarding. :)

* What was the nicest thing someone told you about yourself:
that I am worth it - worth anything and everything. > nothing else will beat this, I guess.

* the most touching experience you've had this year?
Seeing my dad and Giann play. And EJ taking care of Giann.

* What did you like most about yourself this year?
I've learnt to be more honest with myself. And I'm definitely much stronger now.

* What did you hate most about yourself this year?
Stubborness. > same answer!

* Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
Ah, I'm too lazy to think!

* Was 2008 a good year for you?
It was indeed.

* What was your favorite moment of the year?
Christmas.

* What was your least favorite moment of the year?
Having to come back to this house at the most ungodly hour of the night because Pau and Mac drove to pick me up.

* Where were you when 2008 began?
Beside sleeping Giann who was then 5 1/2 months old.

* Who were you with?
Giann and Pau (who was sitting in front of his PC!)

* Where will you be when 2008 ends?
In our room.

* Who will you be with when 2008 ends?
Pau and Giann and Baby T!

* Do you have a new years resolution for 2009?
None.

* What was your favorite month of 2008?
January and December.

* Did you lose anybody close to you in 2008?
Close being a relative word, so yes.

* Did you miss anybody in the past year?
Yes.

* What was your favorite record from 2008?
None at the top of my head.

* How many concerts did you see in 2008?
None.

* Did you drink a lot of alchohol in 2008?
nope. > same answer

* do a lot of drugs in 2008?
double nope. > same

* you do anything you are ashamed of this year?
Nope.

* How much money did you spend in 2008?
countless. > most definitely!

* What was your proudest moment of 2008?
Giann's 1st birthday!

* What was your most embarrassing moment of 2008?
Can't think of any.

* If you could go back in time to any moment of 2008 and change something, what would it be?
Ah something for me to keep.

* What are your plans for 2009?
Go to HK. Haha.

* How are you different now that the year has ended?
Well, for one I am definitely fatter. :P Also, wiser and stronger and a much better mother. :)

* What are your wishes for the new year?
World peace! And a house.

xoxo

Christmas photos! :)

here

and here

♥♥♥

xoxo

have I ever told you?

that I have the BEST (if only I can double, triple, quadruple bold this word!) family in the world? :)

HAPPY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!

I'm off to be with my loves so later.

xoxo

FUNNIEST ICON EVER!

Need I say more?

xoxo

OH MY GOD I LOVE WOLVERINE!

Hurry the eff up May 2009!

xoxo

"foreigner ba asawa mo?"

I get that question A HELL LOT! Even my mum gets asked about my husband too! "Foreigner ba napangasawa ng anak mo?" And my silly mum would sometimes joke, "Oo, British." Hahaha.

One of the teachers asked me that question (yet again!) on MSN a little while ago:

12/18/2008		7:47:51 PM		jigu_pm6@hotmail.com		Yeng		foreigner b asawa mo ang cute na baby mu eh
12/18/2008		7:47:58 PM		Yeng		jigu_pm6@hotmail.com		hahaha
12/18/2008		7:48:04 PM		jigu_pm6@hotmail.com		Yeng		^^
12/18/2008		7:48:07 PM		Yeng		jigu_pm6@hotmail.com		hindi :P
12/18/2008		7:48:18 PM		jigu_pm6@hotmail.com		Yeng		bkit tisoy ang baby mu? hehe
12/18/2008		7:48:25 PM		jigu_pm6@hotmail.com		Yeng		eh s pic mukha k naman chinese
12/18/2008		7:48:28 PM		Yeng		jigu_pm6@hotmail.com		tisoy ang daddy nya :P
12/18/2008		7:48:28 PM		jigu_pm6@hotmail.com		Yeng		hehehe
12/18/2008		7:48:32 PM		jigu_pm6@hotmail.com		Yeng		wow
12/18/2008		7:48:34 PM		Yeng		jigu_pm6@hotmail.com		hahaha

So I told Pau about him being "tisoy" and OMG the pressure on him HAHA.

It's funny though. Giann has brown hair. And to a certain extent, he really doesn't look very Filipino. He's so adorable! :D

You should see him when he's playing with the other kids in this street. He literally, amazingly stands out. His skin and hair colour look amazing especially with the sun. And yes, I am one hell of a proud mother! :)

xoxo

love love love!

My boys (Kuya Baby Giann and Kuya Tito EJ) playing on a Saturday morning :)

xoxo

oh boy

You can thank your stars all you want but
I'll always be the lucky one

xoxo

I'M HOME! :D

So I'm here in our condo because I attended a meeting with the other teachers of this company I now "work" for. "Work" because I don't really work for them, and talking to someone in english for like 10-20 minutes is something I don't consider as work. ;) But it's good. I get half as much as I used to when I was still with The Firm and I only work 4 hours a day (only 3 hours if we don't count the breaks in between) so if I'll work for like 8 hours, I'd get just as much as I used to without having to commute every day for long hours, inhale the fumes of the doomed building and be all stressed out. Plus I get to be with Giann all the time! (except the 4 hours that I need to be on Skype) It's a pretty good deal. ;) My blood pressure's controlled now ever since I stopped working for The Firm. I'm not kidding.

Anyway, I was a little worried to leave Giann here at first because I was afraid that he'd throw tantrums and all but I came home from the meeting and I saw my giggling little bub playing with his Kuya EJ! Even my mum was ecstatic to see them playing because they were giggling and laughing and running! :)

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I told my mum about Giann being all clingy to me and all she said was, "hay mahihirapan ka pag nanganak ka na..." but just that! She didn't say, "mali ka kasi...blah blah blah." I love how cool she is. How she doesn't underestimate me as a mother, how she continually reminds me of certain things but still letting me be in control and how she knows when to let me go and when to pull me back. She's the bestest. EVER. I'd be quick to admit that I can't top her!

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I'm wearing my new Dorothy Perkins' mini dress and Giann spoilt it with chocolate. Haha. And it seemed like he knew that he did something wrong because he looked at me almost crying and I was like, "I'm not mad. It's just a dress. I love you more." Then he rubbed his chocolate-stained face on my dress, spoiling it even more. Hahaha.

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as if

I overheard Pau's mum and Giann's maid talking about me - about the way I raise Giann and how they think I'm not raising him the right way because 1. I spoil him too much and 2. because Giann's super clingy to me, there are times when he doesn't want to come near anyone but me. Like I'm his mother of course he'd be clingy to me! Well, I am sorry your children aren't as sweet as my son, I think that's your friggin problem not mine.

It wasn't the first time I heard them talking about me and yeah I hate it. I hate that they won't tell it to my face so I can snap back at them! When I heard them awhile ago, I walked up to them, they stopped talking and I cannot tell you how much I wanted to say, "and what were you saying?" But I didn't want to do it without Pau's blessings. So later I'm going to ask Pau if I can actually fight back when the pakialameras have lots to say about me.

No one can teach anyone how to be a good mother. Not even my own mother dare cross that line. I am my own person, woman and mother.

Also, let Giann be a baby. Just because he's going to be a kuya soon doesn't mean he can't be clingy to me, and whingy. And for one, THAT IS MY PROBLEM, not yours, so screw you.

xoxo

wala lang

MY CURRENT LIFE:

1. What are your plans for tomorrow?

♥ Go to SSS to declare myself as self-employed and married

2. Who's car were you in last?

♥ Pau's.

3. What perfume are you wearing ryt now?

♥ Haha some really cheap cologne. I disliked the smell of my perfumes since I got pregnant.

4. What color shirt are you wearing?

♥ White and purple

5. How long is your hair?

♥ shoulder length

8. Last movie you watched?

♥ Twilight

9. Last thing you ate?

♥ I've not eaten yet

10. Last thing you drank?

♥ Anmum

11. Where did you sleep last night?

♥ In our super tiny bed for three (soon to be four!)

13. Are you happy right now?

♥ yes and no

14. What did you say last?

♥ "asan na yung hanger ni Giann?" to his maid

15. Where is your phone?

♥ I actually have no idea

17. What color are your eyes?

♥ dark brown

19. Who/what do you hate/dislike currently?

♥ our A/C because it's busted

22. What are you listening to?

♥ none

23. If you could have one thing right now what would it be?

♥ a house

25. Who makes you happiest right now?

♥ Giann :)

33. What is the last alcoholic beverage you had?

♥ Coke haha. I'm wholesome like that!

34. When is your birthday?

♥ 11-25

36. Who was the last person to send you a text message?

♥ I don't know. Giann screwed my phone since like 5 days ago?

37. When is the last time you were in a swimming pool?

♥ last Summer?

40. How do you feel about your hair right now?

♥ I want to have it cut, really.

47. Are you an only child or do you have siblings?

♥ I've beautiful siblings! Thank God for them! :)

49. What was the first thing you thought when you woke up?

♥ How daldal and kulit Giann has gotten. Yes, he woke me up!

50. Do you drink zagu?

♥ yes sometimes. But now that you've mentioned it I suddenly want one!!

52. Friendster or Myspace?

♥ months ago I would've said Facebook but yeah, not anymore.

53. Do you have T-Mobile?

♥ I have nothing. I feel like I'm in sick poverty compared to Pau's iPhone. Haha. I've no phone!!

54. What is your favorite subject in school?

♥ Literature, Philosophy, TV Production and Radio Production

58. Have you ever been in a wedding?

♥ I'm 24. Go figure.

60. Did you take a nap today?

♥ I just woke up!

61. Ever met someone famous?

♥ I AM FAMOUS. Hahaha.

63. Do you want to be famous one day?

♥ see previous answer!

66. Could you handle being in the army?

♥ are you kidding me?

67. Do you believe in Karma?

♥ to a certain extent

72. Ever been to Las Vegas?

♥ nope.

78. Do you have a favorite cartoon character?
♥ Barney! ;)

xoxo

so it is correct

"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind."
~Dr. Seuss

xoxo

different loves

Pau has taught me to accept this as an absolute truth:

Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they've got.

He loves me with and at his best. And sometimes I just don't realise it. His idea of loving can be different than mine, but that doesn't mean that he loves me the wrong way. There's no right or wrong way in loving someone. Love is just is. It's there or it isn't. It's as simple and complicated as that. And he loved/s me for 10 long years. Thank God for him! :)

xoxo

yeah you!

You're my parachute and the ground is 2,000 miles below. You know I'm not scared of flying nor of dying but please just let me hold on to you. Like dear life.

I don't want to crash land.

Not when the other option is much much better.

xoxo

because

I know this is like super weeks late but whatever. I just want to say that I don't like Twilight the movie. Not as much as I adore the books. I'm sorry Robert Pattinson fans (especially to my Baneneng) but he doesn't do MY Edward justice! Like really. Not even close to the Edward I had in mind when I was reading the book. Robert Pattinson burst my bubble more kthxbye.

But anyway, of course it is expected that the book is better. I'm not at all surprised. And of course the producers didn't have someone like me in mind when they came up with the movie. I'm not its target audience. Maybe if I'm like 15 or 16 then I would be drooling over (and writing his name inside tiny little hearts haha!) Robert Pattinson as Edward. So yeah, I forgive it.

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I was in Rockwell yesterday, doing some early (well, okay this is relative) Christmas shopping and just because I want to go there. And man, as soon as I entered this toy store, like 10 of its sales people gathered around me, each one holding at least two toys to FORCE to me. Wow, do they really know how to harass a customer! I wonder if the first requirement to be a sales clerk is to pass the "how-to-harass-your-customers-101" training. But yeah, I ended up buying something for my big Kuya EJ and it's now sitting on our mini bar. :P

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And I am like friggin tired. So goodnight good night.

xoxo

pregnancy woes

I'm guessing I have urinary tract infection. I will know tomorrow morning because the laboratory won't release the result until 11 PM tonight so good luck with that.

But I've been annoyingly, weirdly cold since yesterday afternoon, after munching on homemade fries. Like muscle-freezing cold! And my back hurts. And I feel terrible. If you really know me you'd know that I rarely feel cold. Ate (and even Pau agrees) that I've the skin of a carabao! Haha. Like everyone around me is like dying of cold and I'm like, "what is it cold?!" I say I'm made for the finer things like that! *flipshair*

Anyway, tomorrow I will go back to the lab again, visit the ever loving *cough* CRL, go to Jigu (what a funny name, never fails to make Gill laugh!) to know if I can now start with my home-based teaching stint and go see my OB for yet another check-up.

One thing about pregnancy is that it will force you to be okay with hospitals, if not entirely enjoy it. I hated the smell of hospitals for as long I can remember until I got pregnant with Giann and ergo was obliged to visit my OB's clinic once a month, sometimes even twice or thrice and on the 8th month onwards, every week!

But you gotta give it to St. Luke's, its rooms have the ambience similar to that of a hotel's. Even Pau can't complain. :) So yes, we travel that FAR just for check-up! Plus the fact that I love my OB-Gyne and Giann's pedia. They're the bestest! It's shameless marketing right there, I know. :P

Alrighty sleeping now. Good nighty.

xoxo

i don't want much...

I just want to be filthy rich.

OR

Get out of here.

OR

Be indifferent.

For once I don't want to just complain.

It's frustrating when everyone seems fine with everything and you're the only one outside the orbit of their happy-perfect-universe. You'll never come close to guessing.

Have you ever felt like you've no one to turn on to? Because they just won't understand because they're okay and happy. And you're the only one who knows that something's wrong. And you know what's shittier? It's when you realise that you have led yourself to this.

Long time ago I wanted this. Not anymore.

xoxo