letters to my children

My Dearest Little Kuya Giann,

Mum will be honest. I'm worried about leaving you for days but I know you'll be a good boy. Mum will definitely miss you and I know you're going to miss me too but promise me you won't give your lola, ninang, kuya and the maids a hard time, okay?

I will be back soon! With a bonus baby sister for you! :P You may not really be thrilled with her arrival but we'll get there. You're a smart, sweet, very beautiful little kuya and I love you very much. Know that a new baby will not lessen my love for you. Mum actually looks forward to raising Baby Red with you. :)

Make mum proud Kuya Giann! Patiently wait for me like the real, smart, good little Kuya that you are! ;)

I love you. I'll see you soon! 

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My Dearest Baby Girl,

I wish I have the best words to tell you how anxious and excited I am to finally see you! Mum will not lie, I am very very very nervous too (that we cried more than once yesterday just thinking about the BIG day!) but we're strong, we'll be fine. :)

Conceiving you may not be as breezy as conceiving your Kuya but I want you to know that it never lessened the joy, love, and anticipation I'm feeling knowing that I'm going to have you. I actually can't wait to hold your tiny, fragile little body while imagining how cute you'd be in pink dresses! :P

We're off to the hospital in a few hours. Mum will yet again undergo painful, annoying medical procedures before having you but much as I'm scared, I will take them like a real woman for they bring me steps closer to finally meeting you.

Mum is really nervous! You must be too. But no worries love, we'll be fine. We have your lola's strength! We're strong and beautiful and we're gonna rock St. Luke's! ;)

Daddy and Kuya Giann will be waiting for us, we should come home soon. 

I love you.

xoxo 

i don't give a rat's ass if you're from mars

Dear Men,

Please learn that:

If a woman asks you something, it's not because she wants to be annoying. It's because she wants your assurance.

If a woman calls/texts you time and time again, it's not because she wants to take note of your every move. It's because she misses you.

If a woman calls your attention, it's not because she wants ALL of it, it's because she wants a piece of your time (duh!).

If a woman gets jealous, it's not because she wants to fight, it's because she loves you.

If a woman wants to hear you love her and you think she's beautiful (yes, over and over again), give it to her. It doesn't hurt to let her know how you feel. Yes, even if it's reiterating the same thing over and over and over...

If a woman wants to talk, it's because she wants to know how you are and what you're thinking. Because I'll bet my life you don't talk to her as much.

Also, it really doesn't help to shout at her. She's a woman, what are you gay?

I, thank you.

BOW.

xoxo

of dinners and 4D ultrasounds

Dear Pol, Gill & Hana,

I'm sorry I missed tonight's dinner. But it's a Tuesday night! Tuesdays nights are movie/DVD nights with Pau! Because as I've told you, every Tuesday (well, MOST Tuesdays) is WoW maintenance day. All servers are down ergo I have Pau's attention all to myself. :P And you know we all need attention, yeah Hana? ;)

So next time. :) Which means Pol, treat us again next time OMG!!! :P

Love,
the not so Dora Dora Dora the Explorer (ay ay!) anymore

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One thing I like about provincial buses are the TVs. Makes the looong way home a bit bearable and semi-entertaining (because it actually isn't when Gaano Kadalas ang Minsan is running, yeah Ivor? :P). On my way home tonight the TV was tuned in to this TV show "Moms" and they were featuring 4D ultrasound! And I was transported back to the day when I was 8 months pregnant with Giann - I was with Pau inside St. Luke's Women's Healthcare Center, waiting for the nurse to finally announce "Ambayec, Ann Millaine" so I can finally see the little boy inside my tummy on 4D! And then finally my turn came, I nervously laid down on the cold bed, put my preggy shorts down, and actually felt like fainting when the device (whatever they scientifically call it) started roaming my naked tummy. "Mommy, nakatakip po yung kamay ni baby sa face nya." I swear my heartbeat almost stopped. "Ha? bakit? Okay lang ba siya?" "Opo, pero nakatakip po yung kamay niya sa mukha niya so hindi natin sha ma44D..." I looked at the monitor and I saw half of the face of the most handsome little guy ever! One doctor suggested, "Mommy kumain po muna kayo, something sweet or take very little caffeine to stimulate the baby. Baka gumalaw sha. Balik kayo after an hour."

So Pau and I went straight to Burger King. I had their Hershey's pie whatever and sipped Coke for the first time after 8 months! I also held my tummy the entire time and talked to Giann, "baby, show yourself to mommy please. This will be your first photo ever, don't be shy!"

After an hour of "stimulating" Giann, we came back to see if Giann's moved already but nope, he hasn't. Well, he did. But he just switched positions. His hand was still blocking his cute face! So finally the doctor said, "Mommy, mukhang ayaw talaga ni baby magpakita, next time na lang po."

I came out of the ultrasound room with tears streaming down my face. I was crying like hell. I couldn't speak, I just kept on crying. I was disappointed. Until Pau said, "okay lang yun, at least alam natin na normal si Giann. Wala shang complications at healthy siya db?"

Then I realised how much of a bitch I was. Pau's right. It didn't matter if we weren't able to capture Giann on 4D when he was still inside my tummy. All that matters is that he's healthy and that we're having him in a month's time!

I admit I still didn't stop crying until we got home. But after that night I came to appreciate the little boy inside my tummy more (if that's still possible because I love him more than myself).

Until now, in most days, Giann is still the same snub as he was when he was still inside my tummy. Haha. Let's blame his Y-chromosome for that. :P

xoxo

there's something about letters

Dear you,

Do not threaten him. Do not take the ONLY thing he's here for. Believe me, when you do, I'd throw a party! So don't threaten him, you've got EVERYTHING TO LOSE. ;)

But really, OMG please do! :P And don't just say it, do it do it do it!

LOL.

love,
me

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It's safe to assume I didn't force myself to go clubbing tonight. NOT EVER actually. Plus, Pau didn't want to go. And Mac's out for a monthsary celeb so he can't come too. So Pau and I just watched Mummy 3. Brendan Fraser's son in the movie is kind of cute. But not too cute I didn't even bother to find out what his name is. :P

Speaking of movies, we watched Hancock a couple of weeks ago and I went out of the movie theatre all confused and depressed. How can you ever be "made for someone" and CANNOT be with that someone? Like seriously? How can you ever live your life with someone else knowing that someone out there is THE one for you? :(

Stupid plot.

xoxo

something from my mail

Hey Prinsesita,

Quick question: have you been happy with your experience on OkCupid? I ask because I just noticed that you haven't answered any match questions and you're probably not showing up in people's searches as much as you could be if you answered even just a few.

-Chris

Dear Chris,

I am not at all "happy" with OkCupid. Actually, I am not interested at all. In fact, the ONLY time I used OkCupid was when I took this "how addicted to World of Warcraft are you" test; which, by the way, suck big time because it gave us wrong results! Get your scoring right, man. So yeah, no more OkCupid quizzes for me! Stupid quizzes. :P

P.S. Whoever said I want to be "searched" anyways?

Love,
Prinsesita (thankyou for calling me little princess though :P)