you don't see me

I'm not a fan of Pussycat Dolls.

But this one makes me cry. For real.

xoxo

hmm...

So this is "convenience." How alien this feeling is to me.

I'd choose inconvenience anytime.

But probably not tonight.

Maybe.

when when when!!!

When do you draw a line?

When do you turn your back, walk away and raise your head up high?

When do you stop the tears from flowing?

When do you choose and stand by it?

When do you let go?

When do you stop dancing to the music?

When do you say 'enough' and actually mean it?

When do you stop believing?

FRIGGIN WHEN?

So of course you cannot relate. But whatever. Those questions aren't really intended for no one in particular, anyways. But yeah.

Sighs.

Oh. Also, someone told me this couple of years ago. "After all, the best kind of love is the one that makes you go crazy." He didn't mean it. NOT AT ALL. But. I still believe in it. :)

Love,
Me!

and so you cannot relate. bleah.

I'm so enormously happy to have just this alone. It doesn't really matter that it will never be anything more than this. This is plenty enough.

You have that on me.

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I think I will be on blog leave for a while. Think being the Mega-Multi-Millionaire keyword here. MUST DO THESIS PROPOSAL IN 4 DAYS. MUST GIVE IT TO THE PANELISTS FIRST THING MONDAY OF NEXT WEEK. MUST DEFEND IT BEFORE JANUARY 11. *coverseyesandtakesthatonebigleapoffaith*

Hello I am Queen Procrastinator, apprentice of The Master. :P

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Oh and also, I don't think I got the Sunlife job. Then again, maybe, just maybe, it wasn't meant for me. I am still the eternal sunshine girl, refusing to be put down by life's disappointments. I'll have my moment. Soon. ;)

Love,
the-beautiful-messy-twisted-sunshine super girl!

i wanna be a rockstar!! (believe me, this has nothing to do with the entry)

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In other news, I watched Enteng Kabisote 4 with Pau (yes, he's a fan!) and it was... Enteng Kabisote. All you'd expect it to be. Also, it was Pau's first time to drive the new car in an express way! Here in the Philippines, that is. Pau had his first ever driver's license in the US, weird eh? So anyway, he's a Filipino driver now. Galit sha sa mga jeepneys! Haha.

That's all folks! Heh. I'm reminded of Bugs Bunny; ergo I'm reminded of Ate! :P

xoxo

beautiful words.

There's a four-line poetry I could never forget. They are not my words but they're in my heart like they are mine. But then, I guess they're really mine after all. I am being selfish and will not share it. Memories are all we have, don't we? So I'd rather keep them all to myself.

But I have to say, this four-line poetry makes me melancholic and hopeful and happy and down all at the same time.

Not a lot of things can make me that.

thought #1

The only thing we can do about the past is remember it. Hold onto it for as long as we can until they slip away. Then convince ourselves it's not worth going back to. Just so we don't regret. Just so we don't spend our whole lives looking back - wishing, hoping, crying.

A little thought of the day.

xoxo

that song.

Amazing how songs trigger emotions. It's like hearing a part of your life be told over and over again with melodic accompaniment. It reminds you of the love you lost, the one you found and all warring emotions in between. It stirs all the feelings - the one you've been shoving down hoping it won't surface, the one you can't let go of, the one you can't resist, the one you will forever have, even the feeling you think you have, but don't. Each verse, every word, it hits a certain spot.

Yep, it sure does.