i saw this somewhere

Everyday I wake up and have this ache in my chest. And sometimes, I just sleep in because when I wake up, you’re not gonna be there.

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I'm supposed to be sleeping but I can't sleep. I'm...sad. Gill once said that people cry and they know why, but when they cry and they couldn't reason even to themselves why they're crying, the reason must be something beyond them - something profound and real. Hmm. I am not really crying but I am really sad. Not TERRIBLY sad though. Just...sad.

Ah I should take it easy. I keep on answering "yeah" to someone who kept on saying "take it easy!" and I should keep it. I've broken one too many promises already.

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We've officially moved offices. So now, Gill and I are CLOSE. LITERALLY. I will take photos of our uber cozy workplace tomorrow.

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Pau showed me the biggest Toblerone EVER! It's sitting in the fridge. Too bad it's not white. BOO.

Alrighty time to try and sleep (again!)

xoxo

dram before 8, can you believe it?

Pau and his boys AND me and my girls! ;)

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For a good deal of time I felt like I miss being in another country. Then yesterday I realised, it's not being in another country that I miss, it's my family. The first time we got to spend real good time as a COMPLETE family (with Giann, after god knows how long) was when we went to Malaysia and Singapore. And then we moved on with our "normal" lives. Then I miss them more every single day. The fact that this house, this neighbourhood and the people in this house are very much different from where I was before (and believe me, to say I love my life before I got sentenced to live in this house is an understatement) isn't helping any. But I look at Pau and Giann and it makes semi sense. Because I don't have to be HERE to prove my love for them.

You know, Pau's mum can install bazillions of airconditioning units in this room, she can fill this room with whatever electronic gadget she thinks will make me enjoy my stay here, she can cook scrumptious food every day to make me feel like I'm home, and I appreciate her for that. But this house is not my home. And it never will be.

So really, if time were in a bottle, I would sprinkle it on things/people/events I want to keep forever.

xoxo